Analyzing self...

I'm guessing most of the words that upset me are again felt by me as someone judging me within my relationships or as an attack of some sorts on what I hold dear to my heart...my love for another. So darned if it doesn't all seem to lead back to the protecting love thing...

But then others descriptions of my relationships shouldn't really be upsetting when I know what they are to me. And what I shared with my T is ever so precious in my eyes and heart and always will be no matter what it's called by anyone. And what it has done for me is all positive. Just a word, like T said. I don't have to be afraid of a word when I know my feelings.

I think maybe then I also need to work more on accepting criticism and using that as a source of knowledge to make gains and to not perceive it as a put down.

I remember when I first started therapy I felt as if receiving anything made me a selfish person. And T taught me to accept the good feelings and it was okay to allow that. I had such a difficult time with that but eventually I got there. I used to have trouble with words such as "self-serving", but not anymore. I try to see that in a more positive light.

I like the words "positive", "accept", "enlighten". Figures, huh?