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Jul 24, 2009, 09:43 AM
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Member Since: Sep 2007
Location: Colorado
Posts: 9,092
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I've gotten used to posting out a lot of my feelings and problems. And for once this isn't a mental health... thing but... I feel like I need to get some feelings out, and I luv all of you on these boards sooo I hope you don't mind this post.
But ya... I'm EXTREMELY nervous, scared... I feel like even at 21 I'm just a little baby entering a very large and scary world.
In the process of buying a car. It's used... the owner seems upfront, I'm getting it checked by our family mechanic... I won't have to take loans or anything...
its scary because of the responsibility - the money.... monthly /anual costs... fear of not finding a job... hope that having a car with increase that chance... but it's a lot of pressure suddenly applied in just 2 days.
Having a car overall would be a great thing - freedom, MUCH better chance of finding a job. Just again, I hit moments of TOTAL FEAR... deer in headlights. Can't get my mind off it... constantly nervous, scared, tense, afraid of something going wrong, unseen costs, just anything.
So, asking for hugs, reassurance, advice, anything really.
*hugs to all* 
And for those feeling down, LOADS of hugs, and remember to feel free to PM if you ever need to talk 
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Yesterday I was so clever, so I want to change the world.
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.
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