I so know how you feel. My son has been on various anti-depressants and mood disorder medication for almost 4 years. I knock myself in the head EVERYDAY blaming myself for his illnesses. He's only 10, so of course I KNOW its my fault...no one elses. The doctors try to explain it differently, but it all works out the same.

The good news is he and I have a very wonderful relationship. He's extremely bright for his age, and we talk about our illnesses and medication anytime and anywhere. I never want him to feel ashamed, or "weird" (one of his words).

Its ok now, and I know it will only get better!

Good luck,
Dee