(((((dolphinmkr44))))) Sorry that you are feeling so down. I to go through these same thoughts. My advise is to copy this post and take it to your doctor, let them read it. I know that it can be hard to do but it is how you feel and your doctor will be able to see what you see. It sucks having this illness and I know that it is hard to fight. But your best weapon is letting your doctor know your true feelings or how your depression effects how you feel. Take care and good luck with your battle against depression. Hugs for your day...