Hello Lechim and thank you for the kind reply.

I am really feeling or going through a time in life right now filled with not only issues of sexuality but issues of undermedicated, learning to be more open minded and am and have be mentally decomponsating and continuing to as well as physically uncertain and speak not much of all of it and really am trying to get out of the past religious preoccupation that has also stopped me from being real.

I guess in a summary I reallly am lost and worry excessive and have many fears of abandonment and loss of those I do care very much about. I really am a mess at the moment or getting better a bit at a time. As better as better can get thanks again. kk101