Diana:

I know exactly how you feel. I don't like working on my self esteem either. My family doesn't like me because I am working on my stuff and they don't like the fact that I am gay. I understand how you feel. I don't like it when people say nice things about me because I think "if they knew the true me they won't say anything and would run away screaming." I hope you don't hurt yourself. You are such a special person and I won't run screaming from you.

Just take a deep breath and relax (I know that is easier to say then do but try your best )

Pooh