It's okay. I did abuse alcohol from 2003-2007, so it's not like I haven't had my scares. I know from experience not to drink more than 1, because after 2 and I don't know how many I'll drink before I'll blackout or pass out. Not good. I'm not proud of that period of my life. I was seemingly happier, but certainly not very healthy and if my meds start working well, I'll remind myself that drinking irresponsibly again will make me depressed (which is why I sought treatment to begin with). I know my limits and I don't want to cross them ever again. If I find I can't stop once I'm feeling "up" again, I'll likely have to quit drinking altogether and join some sort of a program. Not much temptation right now with feeling so volatile and down.

I'll defend my drinking only so far. And then I'll get help.