Yikes. I wish my p-nurse would give me something to help my extreme mood swings/anger/depression in the past few weeks. She wouldn't change my meds at all today. She would only consider adding Lithium to my other meds (and lithium totally scares me). I just need something until the Lamictal starts working! I said that to her, then she wants to drop my anti-depressant, which I need for energy at all. I wanted to drop my sleep aid for a new one. No such luck. I'm stuck for a month it looks like and I'll just have to grit my teeth on extreme days and go to sleep after my emotions and brain have worn me out.

Some Klonopin sounds good about now. Not trying to diminish anything of what you're going through. Definitely keep in touch with your docs if you're finding things unbearable.

I just saw a movie where the guy took a Klonopin for the first time and he couldn't hear anything for a while, only the pounding of his own heart and a little later he was fantasizing about attacking the guy who was seeing his ex-wife, but in the end he was calm and rational. Not sure if that has anything to do with anything, just saying that's all I know about it. I used to be on lorazepam (another in the benz-whatever class), but p-nurse took me off of it b/c she said it was addictive long term. Don't remember any bad side effects.

So I'm rambling, but when I first started a lot of my antidepressants, they caused anxiety, heart racing, aggressiveness etc. So maybe it's one of those that's causing the panic or all day long anxiety. The sleep aid/anti-anxiety/anti-psychotics will tend to counter those effects. It's like you don't want to have no energy, but you don't want to have a nervous brain either. And if your depression isn't being treated (i.e. you're on the wrong anti-dep for you personally) it will only cause anxiety and nervous energy.

Consider having your antidepressant meds reevaluated when you see your doc next. Or, as they always say, after a couple of weeks on the anti, such side effects may wear off. Sorry, I know every hour and day feels like an eternity right now. And relief is all we want!

Hold on. We'll be here.