((((((((((((DianasClan)))))))))))) I'm so sorry you are struggling. I remember one time when T and I tried to come up with positive things that I could accept about myself. It was very difficult. We finally came up with things like, I have a sense of humor (I couldn't accept it as a good sense of humor), I care about about children, I tell the truth, etc. Maybe start out with non negatives first? Some of the things I finally accepted were neither negative or positive. They were more non threatening. And it helped me.