I understand your fears, it isa scary thing, to be diagnosed with bipolar and social anxiety disorders. What led you to your diagnosis? I hope it was'nt like mine, I was found on the side of the road complaining people were getting killed, you don't mention a scary thing that led up to your diagnosis, so perhaps you are lucky, perhaps your illness is to a less degree than mine. But I'm doing better!! There is hope!! Check out the depression bipolar support alliance, our local site is dbsaroch.org witha link to the national site, where they will identify a meeting near you...the meetings are so reaffirming, you will find you are not alone. Also coming to this website, whether you are posting for yourself or helping others. There is hope, I am doing great now, and the illness has brought me closer to God, and I open up and reach out to my family, and this has brought us closer. Write more about your family, from your message it seemed like your family of origin wasn't helpful yet your spouse is. It may or may not be passed along to your children, it could be either way. Keep coming to the forums! We love you and wish to hear more about how you're adjusting!! Keep your chin up!!