WOW thanks so much all of you that hs replied!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TPND we has absolutely NOWHERE to go to get away from the bull hear.we blowed up at don again last nite and he never even pt his arm around us when we was shakeing in bed last nite. we finally just gived up on sleep and got back outta bed.
its so bad rite now that we is even afraid to get in the shower because of triggers associated with THAT.
ye all we is trying to post whats going on in her head cuz we do get that we has freinds here and that folks do care here. and it is SUCH a help and blessing!
it is hard to even put her thoughts, daily activities into words because half of it or more is like just gone have no clue cant seem to remember good again, like i dont always know iffen what i think was yesterday was actually 2, 3 days ago or more ya know it sucks . all the days seem to run into each other with no end or beginning. even *****ed out one of the neighbors kids the other day
iwbeads is afraid to leave the house dont wwant to go anywhere. even iffen this is not the best place to be .and it aint like we can ust pick up and go wherever we weants cuz we ccant even drive no more. T really has stirred the po9t up in the last couple of day and that does not help matters.
this DID thing is also mitey frustrateing.........like it sometimes is as if we have this one body and but there are 14 other brains livieng in it besides me. i dont like it. but it wont fix or go asqy. thjerapy just gets hatder and theat makes everything worse too.
iffen that is supposed to make things get gooder why isn't it yet? vbeen doing this therapy thing solidly for 5 yeears now adn feel like hitting our head up aigainst a buick wall.
loss of words again so outta here for awhile.