Hi krzyk101, I don't think we've met on the boards before.
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Originally Posted by krzyk101
This false feeling of being in love only adds to my self hatred of being attracted to the same sex.
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It sounds to me as if you may be dealing with two entirely different issues here: (1.) that at times you feel as you're in love with someone even though you recognize that they're not the most suitable (for you) choice of someone to be in love with; and (2.) that you don't think you should be attracted to people of the same sex even though you are.
As nearly as I can make out, self-hatred comes from wishing you were some way that you're not. The solution is not necessarily to become the way you wish you were; it could just as easily be to stop wishing and let yourself be.
What's the "Hated Here" part? I don't remember ever noticing anyone here hating on you and it doesn't seem as though they'd get away with it for long if they did.