I am finally starting to just say I need to post and get the fear over. I have feared this fourm for a long time now. I have wanted to post so bad and try to talk to people that understand. Some things happened in my past that made me fear this fourm. I am trying right now to face that fear. I have read a lot of the posts and have wanted to respond back, but always talked myself out of it.

I have let a few of my others post in the garden and they have been welcomed. And people in chat have been great with eveyone in my system. I was Dxed a little over a year ago so this is all still new to me.

Yet I am sooo afraid of posting here for some reason. I am not going to take up much time.

I am just saying hi. I have others and they still scare me I don't know how to deal with them most of the time. I am scared when they come out because I don't know what happens and I don't know what to do.

I have a T and she is helping me understand that they are there and that I can't just wish them away.

I am still scared about all of this.

Sorry for babbling for so long.

Just saying hi.