Thanks ama. Still afraid of lithium, but I'll read up on it. Don't want to lose my WB, so maybe lith will counter the anxiety. I do hate Seroquel XR and regular. I've been awake for 3 hours and I feel like my brain's in a fog. I didn't sleep very deeply last night and it took a long while to fall asleep. Blah. It's like a long shrouded period of dullness, but not good sleep or good wake. I'm in a no woman's land of gray, although the sun is shining and I don't feel depressed, just odd. Like the creatures Ulysses sees in the cave by the river Styx...as I recall from a reading in 8th grade, although my memory is cloudy. I think I need to write an Edgar Allen Poe short story or poem.