Thanks yall... and fuzzy, you can always post your stuff to any of my threads! <hands honey jar to fuzzybear in corner

Well... part of what T said, as we discussed it today, included the fact of my Mental Disability also (duh me... my PTSD) I just never realized it is called that... I mean, if you've read my posts you KNOW I know I suffer with it... but to hear it all in one sentence today just blew me away, you know... I have a mental disability called PTSD.

T also said that for me he thinks I will never be able to NOT be on hyper vigilance. Sometimes that happens to ppl with PTSD, sometimes others can learn to lower the level. So if I'm to stay at psychcentral, members are going to have to learn to live with me

Anyway, that wasn't his main thought, but that I haven't accepted my disabilities in that I don't have a "stable perspective" of them.

I can hold to certain facts, but then when someone counters me or asks me to prove it... I begin to believe what they believe (in their ignorance) and then I am off kelter I guess. Maybe it's part because I don't wish to accept this stuff? I don't know. It seems so limiting. Even though it's truth. And defeating. It feels like I'm giving up... and what haven't I already given up? None of this makes sense to me right now...it's so frustrating. My thinking is skewed at times. Ya know?