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Originally Posted by Foomph
I think I almost feel like I can't look at him (my t) and say this stuff, say all the stuff he wants me to say in the way he wants me to say it because I feel too damn vulnerable.
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Well, one thing I can think of is that saying some of those things might trigger some stuff for you that could take more than one session to work through -- but you say you only have one session left.
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I hate being vulnerable. Who likes it anyway?
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I've been known to, on occasion. For me it seems to depend a lot on how safe I feel -- on who's around to bug me, to stare blankly at me or to support me, for instance.
Vulnerable for me doesn't necessarily mean that anything bad is about to happen -- only that I'm not stopping myself from experiencing stuff that might turn out be in my way if I suddenly needed to shift into fight-or-flee mode or to look as if I had my act together.
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And because I'm the centre of attention and he's focused only on me. I also hate being the centre of attention. And that he cares. Which would also open the floodgates and I hate being emotional (part of the things we're working on).
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And that he'll only be available for one more session? It sounds as though when you react emotionally to something, you can expect that to stir up more emotion like a chain reaction and you don't know where it's going to stop.
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And now we have (potentially) only one session left and do I really want to get into this now? 
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Well, actually you
are in it and you're going to continue moving through it anyway -- at your own pace and in your own way, which will probably be different from the pace and ways that your T has been suggesting to you.
Best of luck, and please do keep us posted.
