two weeks ago we managed to get through an entire weekend of social activities for our daughter's marriage. then we kinda spent a very quiet week after and thought that rested us up. Well, we have a wedding tonight and now a meal out before hand with lots of family members and WE DO NOT WANT TO GO.

why is it so darn hard to do this stuff and why does it feel like someone is being mean to us when they want us to go out. I hate going out. hate hate hate hate social events and I feel panic and ugly and stupid and weird and ANGRY . I am stupid. just wish i could cry. no one here understands (local here, not pc.com) i dread the hours waiting to go and i can't wait to get back home. i hate being like this and wish i could run away from home. i wanna hide so bad. so scared.

scared