(((((((((((((Eriksplus)))))))))))) I'm so sorry you are struggling. I don't have any answers for you but I wanted to let you know I read and I care.

I don't understand what you are asking, I'm so sorry, but I don't have co consciousness so maybe that's why I don't understand. I am often affected by parts of myself though, even if I don't see it until later.

I hope you find your answers.