(((((multipixie)))))

Thank you for believing me... I do hope I can get rid of these fears, even though it was so long ago, I still feel all these fears as if I was still there as a little child... I am always looking over my shoulder and am afraid of my own shadow.

The sexual and physical abuse from my mother happened all the time, there was no escape... but I have released that already in another thread so I'll leave it out here... School was a hard time, I would get asked about bruises and would have to say it's from playing, my mother would get asked and her answer would be that I'm a "boy"... it happens, and he bruise easily... but it was all from her, I wanted to tell but nothing must ever leaves the house... and grown up's never believe kids... " you don't know what you are talking about", I have heard that many times...And lunch time, oh I had a lunch... I would get a drink and a sandwich, but I would have to check it before trying to eat it because there was always something in it, the bread tag, staples, twist ties, hair... I even got them with the cheese slice still in the wrapper... yes, lunch was always fun.

I'm really tired right now so I'll tak later.