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When your world crashes down
how do you pick yourself up and
begin again?.
I have to make the most painful choice I have
ever had to make and it feels like like
everything is gone and I want so badly to
reach out and stop it but yet I just cannot seem to
do that either.
As most of you know I have a really bad relationship with my
daughter its like I say its white she says its black
tonight however I hurt her I did not mean to but my nails scratched her
and as a result she bit me yes folks she is 16yrs old
Is it to much to ask for common respect i.e mum may I use
your computer?.
Or for her to clean up after herself etc.
I wanted my own family so badly I wanted to give
someone all the love that I have pent up inside but all I do
is mess up there is not a day that goes by that my girl and I
do not argue about something and then that fool I call
hubby yells at me you just love to fight with her dont you
or why do you always have to start these things
where the heck is my backup and support from him?.
I am sorry you must be so sick of my whinning.
I just wanted to have my own family I wanted to love them and have them love me
So what do I do do I leave my house and never come back
or do I stay and continue to live this way
the answer I do not know I do not want either
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"Look at me, I'm a tangled puppet--I might be a mess, but I sure can survive."
--4 Non Blondes
"We don't create a fantasy world to escape reality, we create it to be able to stay."
--Lynda Barry
"Years Teach Us More Then Books"
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