I don't know who I am. Where am I? I get lost in my house. I'm tired. I'm scared. I don't want to be scared. My life is falling apart. My family are breaking under the strain. I don't know if we'll make it, if I will make it. I don't know anything any more. I'm so confused. Nothing makes sense. People talk to me and I see their lips moving but I don't understand what they're saying, like they're speaking another language. I look at the tv but I don't see the program or whats being said. I can't hear or feel my children. I am so empty I don't even miss them right now. I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster even though I'm sitting still, my stomach keeps lurching. I can't talk to my husband anymore. I think I'm loosing him, loosing my family, loosing it all. I don't remember. I must be asleep. It feels like a dream. A nightmare. Dear God, I want to wake up now. I want to feel my life, I want to be the one who lives in this body, just me, no rooms, just mine. I don't remember. Will this ever end.