Completely relate. I'm Bipolar I, but on the depressive side 95% of the time. Have a manic episode about once a year on average, but they still don't have my meds right so I'm having anger, irritability and rage sometimes out of no where and it scares me. Then I get exhausted and need to sleep just to calm down. I also think it's a manic episode trying to seep through. I scream in the car to try to calm down after something triggers me when I'm not at the apartment.

I don't argue with my mate or pick fights, but when the emotional roller coaster comes, the most ridiculous things bother me and before you know it we're raising our voices about say recycling (i.e. what they will and won't take...I say no plastic bags, he says why not? They should. I'm gonna keep using them, etc.) I also don't like to be touched or even make small talk when in this state.

All this to say, sorry you're going through it, and perhaps a meds change is in order? My mood stabilizer is still being upped and I feel like this process will never end. Guess I'll reevaluate once I'm up to a "therapeutic dose."

Always here to listen.