(((((((RhysMadison))))))
Thank you but i have no one IRL. We have to get by with who we can find. Tears. i wish so much i could find another T . i was so upset when we talked again this week about the support group and why i couldn't go. Then T told me about his vacation for the first time and it's next week. i'm so upset with him- i wish so much there was someone else. He doesn't care about me at all and makes me feel less than human, calling out my parts until i feel so disconnected and then nothing is fixed- nothing is solved. Then he blames me because i can't do the things he said- like journal- when it hurts too much to journal - i need more help, how to take it little at a time- not just generally "journal." What does that mean in my life - my life that we jump from part to part because it's too painful to live anymore.

Tears.

thank you RhysMadison, for understanding and for caring that we're at the end of ourselves in sadness because of being alone in the mess everything is.
i hate when T blames me. He said to make an appt and talk about how he can help more but he forgot. The focus was on the things i can't do.

i wish i could find another t who could help me do better. Everything is a confusing mess for months.

(sorry for the rant) we just came home from t.

thank you again, RhysMadison for identifying with me.
Take care of you,
kerria