Yikes. I'm glad you're still here.

But it is tragic what happened with your buddies. I can't even imagine if I found out one or more of my friends died like that. I had a brother who died suddenly in his 20s; I guess I'm still in shock about it. That was about the time I was questioning everything in this world, especially my parents' religion.

It reconfirmed my belief that we only have each other. And so I value people so very much. The world is never the same when we lose a friend or loved one. And about all we can do is the most good possible while we're still here.

Sorry I asked you so many questions. Brain was scrambled at times today. Glad you won't have to pay for the hospital stuff. Geez. I had to go there one day just for an eval. No medication was given, no equipment used (except a wand to make sure I had no metal objects). Just arrested and asked a bunch of questions, then released. Cost? Nearly $800. Stupid. My insurance paid a portion of that, I proved I was poor and the hospital didn't charge me the rest. Ironically, I got so paranoid and terrified after the arrest and taking me out of my own home, driving in the back of a cop car for the first time ever, etc., that I needed therapy just to calm down and function again. Had 8 sessions and the insurance refused to pay declaring it "pre-existing." Um, then why did you pay for the hospital visit? It's what caused the need for therapy. ***holes! Still pissed about that. I'll have the bill paid off in 2011. The provider was evil too and she wouldn't give me a sliding scale. ****. ***** is rich already too. Can't stand people who worship money. What did you go into your profession for anyway? Obviously not out of caring for other people. (This is one of the people I would like to take some harmless revenge on...just something to let them know they reap what they sow...but I'm sure it's punishment enough having to be her. Yuck.)

Another rant. There I go again.

I hope to see you a lot more on here.

We'll leave the light on even if we're not Motel 6 We have better toilet paper.