I finally arranged for housekeeping. They come tomorrow first time. I haven't hired them for any more times...yet. It's too stressful. I really need help with the house. I mean, it's not unhealthy. It takes all my energy to keep after the floors and clothes as it is... and if housekeeping can do that and more, then I can get to the paper clutter and other stuff.

Psychologist says most ppl with PTSD have trouble with ppl coming into their homes. And since I'm hypervigilent, it's going to be worse for me.

Don't hate me because I can afford help. I have to pay ppl to help me. I have no one else to help me with anything.