Well, I was going to keep quiet as I'm feeling very vulnerable right now and somewhat attacked... but I really need to push on and voice my thoughts.

Missi- I think your outlook is very healthy and admirable and I say- hats off to you -- With your outlook I don't see anything but a bright future for you!!! I wish you so much peace and happiness.

I was diagnosed a year ago with PTSD-complex, originating from my childhood. I was abused, neglected and helplessly witnessed abuse other children received. I have carried this -- triggers and all, for 35+ years. Sure, I didn't know most of my adult life why I acted the way I did when I would yell, attack, or withdrawal. But after my diagnosis--- I'm learning and working hard on dealing with my perceptions/triggers.

I don't care what anyone says.... I'm not a lost cause. I will be responsible for my actions-- in order that I can grow and learn and heal!! Yes, it is a way of thinking that I've had for many, many years.... but that doesn't mean my mind is set... minds can learn at any age- IMO!! and I've never read anywhere that PTSD is incurable!! And I'm not ignorant either!!! I've done much research, read books like " Trauma and Recovery" and am in therapy.

Maybe some won't recover from PTSD and can't take responsibility for their actions, that's up to each individual and their abilities. However, I do believe PTSD is not a dead end!!

It's taken me all evening to get the courage to post this.. as I tend to run from any confrontation.... but darn it... I'm going to take a stand for myself. I just hope I exist here in the future to talk about it

Thanks to anyone that's read this.

Mandy