I was severely abused as a child, both physically and emotionally. I was neglected and taken away from my mother at age 10. My father had no idea this was all going on. five years later, my mother (the abuser) passed away, and her side of the family blamed me saying if it was not my fault she would still be here. I was in therapy for over a year. I haven't talked to them since.

I saw a therapist for about a year. I felt that I improved and decided to discontinue my therapy. Now, my boyfriend has requested that I return. My symptoms have been worst than ever and I feel that my relationship is at risk.

I think I may have BPD. I have read through the symptoms and I display several of them. However, when I was in therapy my therapist talked about being concerned for multiple personality disorder. I don't know if either is a good assumption, but I thought you all might be able to help.

My relationship has been most affected lately. It is my first serious (most of my other relationship were over before they began - longest was a month) and I have been seeing parts of my personality that I never knew existed. I have become controlling to the point that Ever love milestone we enter is planned by me. I have become needy - I freak out if he leaves me for a day. I have become negative and paranoid. I loose my temper and scream sometimes. I just feel that I am a horrible person.

My personality before the relationship was always here and there. I was very dramatic and enjoyed quick high paced relationships - I always ended them and feared being rejected. I am very clingy with friendships. I can only have one friend at a time, and usually it has to be a single person I can control. I have had my vurrent best friend for four years and I can't do anything without her. I fear social situations because I fear everyone is talking to me, BUT I am quite the charmer when it is a one on one situation. I have low self esteme, but I prance around like I own the world. I hate being alone.

I am getting to the point where I hate myself. A month ago I began having suicidal thought because I fear that I have nothing going for me in life (this is untrue, I am in college, I have great friends, a patient boyfriend, lots of social events and personal time... but I still feel empty). Blah.. does this make any sense or am I just being silly? Input would help