As many of you know I lost someone that I was in a relationship with for over 2 years a couple months ago. I lost her because I was chronically depressed and she couldn't take the emotional roller coaster. And, to top it off she discovered that my own personal "coping mechanism" was sexual encounters. I am confessed to my sins and I am trying to get better and heal mentally and emotionally. Although, I still miss this woman very much.
At any rate I so much needed a friend as I invested ALL my time in my kids, my job and this relationship. I really only had one real close friend and they have kind of gone "deep end" lately because they have their own issues to battle. So, I found myself very isolated and alone.
I reached out to a woman that I used to date about 4 years ago. To my surprise we "connected" again and I have seen her 2-3 times over the past couple of weeks. She is working out of town a lot so I can't see her very often. She is a good friend and I am happy to have someone in my life now. I have been honest with her about my depression and sexual issues.
I am just not sure if it is a good idea to beseeing her right now. On the one hand I want to be with her, she is a lot of fun and has a great outlook on life. On the other hand I know I am not ready for a relationship (and I have told her that). I just don't want to hurt her, but I don't want to be alone.
What do you all think?