This is so difficult. I think with time it becomes managable. I was only thinkingn about this last night as next week is my last session for 4 weeks, and trying to remember how sad I get during the break, but this time, theres something else there, theres more closeness with T, I think this yr our 6th yr together, we've been the most relaxed with each other, or perhaps I've been more relaxed, I'm sure T doesnt need time to feel relaxed LOL!, but this being closer actually helps with the distance of the break, theres a whole lot more of the relationship to hold onto, only time can give you that, so dont be to hard on yourself or think it to imposible.