Um, TOTALLY understand _Sky. I so get what you've expressed here.

Your psychologist is a darned fine one and I'm very glad you have him to work with. He's correct on a bunch of this stuff (go figure!) and it helps me to read things he reminds you about.

We all need those reminders!!

I would never hate you because of your financial status.

It is enormously difficult for those w/o the hypervigilance of PTSD to grasp how hard something like a strange person, professional, coming to clean can be completely unnerving.

My hope is that you'll come to appreciate this service you are paying for. I hope it frees up more time and energy for you to use as you want to. I also hope that whatever sense of order you and this housekeeper work out is beneficial for you. I'd love to have someone arrange my papers........that is if I could afford it and could let them through the door INTO my room. EEEK!!!

Any bit that helps _Sky is a good thing. Anyone who would think housekeeping a luxury has never experienced what we feel with PTSD.

And I'm glad you posted about this letting us know what is going on for you.