i'm going mad here....

I've not been diagnosed with bipolar since i was 7 and i don't know if i should go back and get another screening....im scared of going to them....incase they say im fine and its something else...

I've been told that could have PTSD and i think that it could be the case aswell...but again im just nervous about it all and don't really want to talk about what happened to get me like this....

I'm literally falling apart at the seems

I feel like i want to hurt myself all the time, but im holding off since i made a promise to my boyfriend and i wanna keep it, but it's making my head spin out of control.... :'(