Kendyll-
First of all let me say that your BF and the others are very lucky to have you--someone who and accepts their condition. None of the outsiders we know accept our condition, think we are "fantacy", and wish for us to go away-even our T dosen't get it! Thank you for being so understanding!
When Jon came out and reacted the way he did after making love to you, I will admitt I reacted the same way after I made love to my wife, just before my death.
We have never told anyone else (not even our wives!)but some of us Eriks, inluding myself and (Webber) Erik have wanted to make love to The Host's mother, which we are very ashamed of.
We too are afraid of being forced to "go away" and have no intention of doing so. Our T is a joke, and we are on the waiting list for a new one.
If you ever wish to talk, please PM us, or seek us out in chat.
Thank you for reading our reply!
(Kay)Erik