Hi - My T was wonderful and understanding, as always. She was very glad that I told her how I was feeling, and we pretty much just stayed on that the whole time, sometimes sitting in silence. She seemed to sense that I wasn't ready to go deep again, so she talked a bit more than normal - that really helped me. She told me that we don't have to discuss anything I don't want to, and I told her I know that. And then she said she'd like to go back and discuss more what I told her last week but that she wondered if I was ready for that. I told her I wasn't, another time, and so we moved on.

I heard what I needed to hear from my T, but I didn't allow myself to show the emotions I was feeling, I just said the words. So now I feel like I still have all these emotions inside me. And my T reminded me that we only have 2 more sessions until she's gone on vacation for 3 weeks. I really want to feel those emotions and explore them with my T, I just couldn't go there tonight.