I would just like to add this if it is okay?.... but what about those of us that have no help yet?.... I still have three months to go before I even get to see anyone.... I get those thoughts all the time and need to talk about it, if not I would surely do it.... I feel the exact same way as Elysium on this subject, I also was controlled on what I was allowed to think, say, or do.... isn't this what the Trigger icon is for?.... if it is used then people have a choice to read it or not, we're here for support and if we can't get it then what good is this place?.... If I'm feeling like I want to off myself then I want help and support which everyone gives greatly here.... the last thing I want is to feel like I'm going to do it and have to keep my mouth shut about it.... that is just so stupid.... I mean, what a great feeling that would be to know that someone that needed the help died because of censorship *rolls eyes* when they could have been helped and talked out of it.... You say, talk to your T first then post here if needed, but.... If I feel like ending it I just can't say I'll wait till whenever to talk to a T.... even though I don't have one, but I want the help as soon as i can get it and that help comes from the other caring members that understand what you are going through.
I'm sorry if I was confusing at all here, I'm half asleep but felt I needed to say something.