hi frostbittenkiss and welcome! it certainly sounds as if you need to get yourself back into therapy. please believe me that therapy can help immensely.

there is a reason that your therapist suspected MPD. are you blamed for things you know you haven't done? do ppl act like they know you but you don't know them? do you "wake up" and don't know where the time has gone? childhood abuse will come out and affect the adult just when their life seems safe and settled.

remember this...you are a SURVIVOR! you've kept yourself alive to this point by doing whatever you had to do survive. i'm proud of you.

with your childhood affecting you so much in current life, you need to see a good therapist that deals with abuse survivors and trauma. maybe you could see the therapist you saw before?

you deserve the best life has to offer you dear...reach out and grab it with both hands please!

btw, i'm a survivor myself who is diagnosed MPD/DID. i have a family and a good life. it can and does get better. you don't deserve what was given you. however, as an adult, it's up to you and no one else to take it out, look at it and place it so it fits into your life now.

i wish you the BEST OF LUCK. please let us know what you decide and how you're doing.

we care.

kd