Miss C thanks. I know that his T was likely just trying to assess the situation at home. The is especially true since the only reason H choose to go in the first place was because we had a big fight and I told him I had had it. H had gone through some of my person items without bothering to ask me, then attacked me a magazine clipping he didn't understand. So, H's T knew from the start he was there because of a serious conflict with me. I KNOW my thoughts about being exposed, manipulated, ganged up on, and influenced into doing things I don't or shouldn't do...at all from the past. Its my parasite talking and creating fear and resistance.
Even though I know this and have done a fairly good job of flipping my thoughts that initial flair of anger and flash of negativity surfaces and temporarily unbalances me. I want these thoughts just all together gone. Hopefully when I go today I'll at least touch on this with my T. Like I mentioned before I have some other stuff that is much more positive that I want to explore and expand on, so its a hard choice to choose where to dig today. This morning I'm flipping between in the mud or in the pristine river.
I cannot imagine having a joint session at this point with H. Good luck this week with your joint session.
BTW do you do joint sessions just with your T? My T said a long time ago that if I ever wanted a joint session that we would do it with both T present. IDK if that makes me more or less comfortable. I know I would NOT want to do it in my Ts office.
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