((((Calista))))

Fool Zero and White_Iris said the things I might have (only better) so I support their comments to you.

You have only one chance at life and those sick people in your family are NOT WORTH the loss of your life and future wellness!!!!! It is a challenge to learn to evict people camping out in your head spreading their poisons, but with some help and effort it can be done and YOU ARE WORTH IT.

Sometimes we give people WAY too much power over us and we can learn how to stop doing that. It will feel so light and free as you learn how to refuse their guilt trips and verbal abuse. I do not know who your brother thinks he is to talk to you like that, but the word that comes to my mind is "big, fat, jerk"! My late brother used to call me at 4 am for drunken rants and I had to learn to just cut him off when he behaved that way and kept telling him I would not listen to him when he was drunk. Before he died of his alcoholism he did learn my boundary and kept it.

If you are feeling seriously like doing something permanent to remove yourself PLEASE GET SOME HELP IMMEDIATELY. I would miss you if you were gone from here. You have value with us here and I want you to stick around, so take good care of you, you matter and there is NO ONE better than you here.

Sorry if I got too wordy or ranty, but I care and want you to be safe.

Leslie