I knows it ama. I will go if I need to. My brain is toast right now from being out in the heat, but it was worth it. I got my gen eds finally squared away at the university, talked to a very nice person who looked over the course materials (my papers) I brought and concluded, yes in fact I was up to par with junior status. So now I only have to take the rest of the classes for my major and I'll be done in 2012 at 6-8 units per quarter (barring breakdown of course). I don't have to do the ****ing freshman seminar either. Nice use of alliteration, yes? My humor, however morbid, never fails even when I'm super depressed. Anyway, I did get an appt, albeit at the student center. It's with a doc who can override the p-nurse's med concoction for me. Hopefully she will listen. I swear, the last 3 times I've been there for various things they said, "Sorry we can't help you. Come back if you're feeling worse." I come back and they do the same bit all over again and they charge my student account. And I'm the crazy one? ***holes. I specifically called this last time and said, "If you don't have the meds I need, I don't want to come in." They indicated that they did. I got there, guess what, they don't have anything for me. I should charge them for my time and energy.

I guess *****ing is better than thinking about death nonstop. Anywayz, things are in the chute. Have work tomorrow, therapy Thurs and the meds appt on Fri. If she doesn't change anything I might lose my mind at their ineptitude, but otherwise, I think I'll survive until then.

Hugs and thanks for your support. I think I want to fill the bathtub with ice water and take a soak. It's 104 right now and supposed to be 108-110 tomorrow...and 95 is normal for this area for this time of year. Thank you global warming...you're the gift that keeps on giving.