It's getting worse. Horrible episode.
Very little control over myself, really disgusting visions.. thoughts are just ferocious. Reality itself seems distant - not so scary, somewhat easier to communicate now.. but no idea what I'm saying.
Life hurts. All the time. I need a break.

Clear sky. I see Jupiter and Saturn from my balcony.. much more than quieting.. apathetic. I love apathy.

Falling asleep.
Good night. Until tomorrow.