I have a friend, whom I call my adopted grandma. She knows I'm going away to school this Fall again (I'm going back for another degree & career change). I see her everyday & visit. I used to love her to pieces, but all of a sudden, I'm not sure I do anymore! I hug her everyday, but all of a sudden, I don't want to anymore (but I still do), & today, instead of saying "I love you" like I do, I said, "I like you very much." I saw my psychologist again today & talked to her about it. She said something about my beginning to withdraw from my friend, & other things. Perhaps I am. I told my friend (my adopted grandma) I will always love her & she'll always be my friend. I also told her I'll keep in touch & come visit her (I'll be 2 hours away from home, still in state).

I'm confused now. I wouldn't feel right if I just left her. I'd feel sad, but I don't know what to do. I may add more, but right now, I need to eat, even though ED doesn't want me to!