Wow....i just felt like i was looking at a self novel written by myself(grrr...did that make a lick of sense..probably not....my ability to express the words in my head when i write or talk seems to worsen daily.....side effect of meds????)
I think i have had very few bipolar episodes and many many more depressive times.I mean,daily depression almost I have the irritability and the severe mood swings associated with bipolar tho.When i was first dx i too had the sexual in nature episodes (cheating,meeting random guys for sex.....crap like that.....) it was an AWFUL time in my life.....i look back and i still cant believe the things i did. I too am still medicated for the bipolar,questioning my dx daily almost as i swallow down the pills ("do i really need these???") But going back to that behavior isnt anything i want to do obviously so i take them.I thought i read somewhere that bipolar meds can enhance depression.Have you ever heard that??? I need to do research on that and really look into it cuz honestly this depression is starting to unwind me,and wear me down.I am sick of crying and sick of thinking bad things.Anyways,i didnt mean to go into all that so deeply but like i said it was just very familar reading your post.Thanks for writing,its nice to know that i am not alone