I'm having a really good day. I want every day to be just as good. I'm not happy, I never will be. But at the same time I'm not feeling completely depressed which is nice. This is a normal day for me and I hope it lasts. I can smile and I don't want to cry just because I don't know if I want an Italian Soda or an iced coffee. It's a good day for me. Why can't every day be this way? I have dythmia and never even knew I was depressed except for days it was really bad. Why can't there just be a way to fix me? My first T really helped me a lot. I never cried because of this foreign substance called "emotions" before I met her. I'm just really missing her lately. I stopped seeing her because my insurance at the time didn't cover her. My T now is alright but my insurance is going to stop next week. I don't know what to do without a T. I'm not on any meds because the side affects weren't worth it. Only thing that didn't cause negative affects was welbuturine but at the same time it didn't make me feel better either. Why can't there just be an instant solution to mental issues? And why is it that the USA doesn't help people like us that can function in a work setting as long as we're getting the proper treatment? Other countries have free medical and mental health facilities.