yw ((((hugs back))))) as for the... permanent leaving?.... I'm still working on changing those feelings and thoughts. T is active for me on them. There's so many parameters, it would take a huge thread to cover them imo.

As for "triggering" yourself... nah... you are just trying out things to try and put your life back together as it was. Learning what is still there for you, and what you need to change is a tough lesson.

TC