Hi again. Thanks dreams and others for your encouragement. Still depressed, almost made it through another day. Did my job okay, even though I was checking and rechecking everything thinking I'd made a mistake.

I hope everyone understands, if I've not expressed it before that the part about "no one cares about my problems" was not referring to any of you. It was referring to friends and family members who either haven't communicated with me in months (for no reason I can understand) or else only call to dump their problems on me when I'm barely keeping it together. My mom yelled at me the other day saying "Don't you put that on me," after she'd told me all her problems and I said in passing, "I worry about the plants that they have feelings too and that I'm hurting them when I eat them." It was just a thought, I wasn't saying I was going to stop eating. I never have had an eating disorder in my life (except maybe a little too much) but I love food. I'm vegetarian, but I used to be vegan. I just think thoughts like that sometimes. So she made me feel bad just for saying something that entered my mind that day. FRUSTRATING!

I have therapy tomorrow. Maybe I can work through some of this, but damn, I need something added to my meds fast.