Your rambling makes total sense, but I'm just crazy like that.

I'm currently hyperactive in the worst way. I'm so angry I don't know what. I need to calm down. I'm still depressed, I'm just also angry to the point that I want to take action and have some justice served. It feels like no one is held responsible for their negligent actions and I'm getting super pissed off.

I probably need a xanax. My heart has been racing since last night. Anxious, having invasive thoughts and close to an outburst. Breathe, must remember to breathe.

Hope you feel a little better soon.