I understand that I'm reading real life experiences and I'm not making anything up when I post a problem. I've actually been quite good to myslef lately and others. But its just a downer because I've bottled everything inside from along time now that I finally brust! The thing is I don't easily trigered by problems. I actually learn more and more stuff listen to others point of views. I've learned that people make mistakes not the end of the world as long if you think twice about stuff. But I find it that I can relate to others and not feel so alone. I couldn't talk to my friends about this like being depressed because hardly some don't understand it. Maybe think I'm crazy... just a little bit. I do respect all members here with the open thoughts alot! I really can't give any good advice because most of you have been in tougher situations than to me. I've been in unbearable situations to face and I dunno how I do it or how everyone else does it? But the main thing is in the end everyone is going to be ok!