Oh wow. You are going through some major stuff right now. I would be so frustrated and angry too. I know you have been talking about the hopsital as an option and I think the hospital may be a good place to get your meds straightened out. Do you have a partial program? I was inpatient for a week and then went to partial and although I really thought it wasn't working while I was there, the med they put me on may have finally kicked in and I have actually felt balanced for a few days. I feel relief from the constant mood swings. (If I could do something about these hives and my anxiety issues, I'd be 100% better) I would say that I was at a definite low point when I entered the inpatient and I am at about 75% to 80% better functioning a month later. It was a long month (which you helped me through with your posts) but I feel like I may be on the other side of the severe depression and so far I am not feeling manic.

It may be a good option...