((((((((((((((((((((zh))))))))))))))))))))))) thank you. you've given me an idea. i've done this before, in fact. i had separated myself from her for three months 2 yrs ago. the reason we started talking again is because the baby and his mother was in an auto accident.

anyhow, i enlisted (with the prompting of t. he also believes she's dangerous for me) my hubby's help in screening calls and reminding me and giving me strength and boosting in not calling her. see, insiders will call and then there i am again. so hubby and daughter watched us like a hawk.

i need to do this again. i need to explain to them what she's done and help to remind me that she doesn't care about me. she needs me for her own gain in her mellow-drama. they will do that.

the baby is the issue. i need help until he's three and can start in headstart. his parents are in bad shape, and not capable of being dependable. i need someone to help me at least a day per week so that "we" can have the time needed to keep internal peace.

ugh ugh ugh. it hurts my soul that she'll slow down her relationship with the baby to play her games. she did it with her own children, so it doesn't surprise me. she did it with my children. she'll do it with him as well. maybe it's better now that he's young? it just all hurts.

thank you ((((((((((((((((zh)))))))))))))))))

kd