Hi again guys. I'm sorry I can't think of any good news right now. I'm just angry and determined to feel better, but very frustrated with this process and never want to see another doc or therapist again. I want to curl up into a ball or else explode and run away.

If Lamictal does work, I won't have to go back to any of those docs. If it doesn't, I'm quitting all my meds, tapering off of them one by one and then I'm going to just drink to numb myself if I feel bad. Cheaper and doesn't require a prescription. If I need to talk to someone I'll use the mirror or talk to my mate or the cat or my journal or you guys (and gals...where I'm from both are combined into guys). And, no, it's not the Andromeda galaxy. Although, sometimes...

They will have cured me of ever wanting help from "professionals" again. I hope they're proud of themselves for thinking I'm an idiot and they know everything. One of their patients will wind up dead one day and although I warned them, they won't even remember what I said. They'll absolve themselves of all guilt and blame it on the illness instead of their refusal to listen and adjust the meds.

Hope to feel better soon and thinking more clearly and replying more specifically to everyone. Hugs to all and warm fuzzies.