There's no need to feel sorry for the rant. I do agree the so called friend really screwed you. She did this for her own selfish reason's. I think that maybe the adoptive mother might feel threatened by you. Meaning your son might take your side. I just hope that your son isn't hearing all this bs. You know you gave your son a wonderful gift by letting him go. I'm sure he knows this. You wanted him to have a better life and for your so called friend and the adoptive mother to rub this in your face is just down right mean and cruel. Personally I would never speak to the friend again. You know I can't really figure out how they would expect you to stop loving him. Anyone who is a mother knows that you never stop loving your child. These two people can say whatever they want, but the fact is he is your child, and always will be, and not one person on this earth can ever take that from you. If this was me I would have done what you done, and shut up about it. It would and could hurt your son. If it is possible just keep on focusing on your son. I would also like to say that you are such a strong person. There isn't to many people who have your strength.